Dear sweet life,
Why must you be so cruel and bitter?
I've wondered if this life will get better,
Always feeling this way.
Why does this feelings have to come back again?
I can't even face my friends again,
Everyone thinks I'm a psycho.
I don't understand this attitude of mine.
Thought writing makes me less worried; it doesn't even work anymore.
How will I express myself for people to know I'm normal...
For months, I've been searching for peace of mind and I can't even have one.
Truth be told people have offered to help, and believe me it ain't working.
How long would this feelings exist?
How long will I have to wait to be myself again?
Do you think I'm crazy?
Do you think I'm a weirdo?
Who can even answer my questions when I keep pushing everyone away.
I encourage others but I can't even believe in myself anymore.
Not to talk about motivating myself to do what I've been telling others.
They might think I have less problems or i have a way of sucking it in by looking at the bright side,
Hell no! I'm dying inside.. I'm dealing with a lot of things here, therapy sections can't even work.
Can I trust in God at this point?
I do believe in God, I'm trying to have a little faith in him.
How can I have this faith?
As a believer of Christ do you think through Christ I can be saved and all my worries will go away??!!...


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