LOVING BLINDNESS
09/22/2018

How...
did I lose sight of who you truly are
reeling in a closeness
never seemed so far

how can I walk away
when you know just how to need me
but as soon as I'm there for you
it becomes so deep

you're everything
I see and believe in...
you were the one
who rescued me
from being with Steven
though this whole time of loving you
left me stranded
heart screaming
I ask you to stay and you pretend you can't go
you've only ever truly been held back from leaving

I fucking told you the doors wide open
Here, I packed your bags for you
I'll give you a ride out of here
if you really need it

an attitude I've kept out of respect
but my fucking God
could you just once go peacefully
instead of this torturous way
you have of leaving me bleeding

begging on my knees
And endless sorry's

how am I the one who is pleading

who would have thought your charm
could have been so deceiving
and you're protective demeanor
was only misleading
loving you so much
almost stops my heart from beating

and these are only some of the words
that are better off for me to be keeping
each day you gloat around silently
all of the havoc that you are wreaking

and killing me slowly
is your idea of succeeding...