Sometimes,
I wish I were never troubled,
when I wanted to be left alone,
I wish I never had to suffer this much pain,
I wish my life were never this hard like rock,
I wish I were never restrained from my wants,
I wish I could disappear for a while like the moon,
I wish I could put all this pain behind me,
I wish I could erase these memories that suck me in and out,

I wish I could always stay out of being in dire situations,
I wish I never had so much anxieties,
cuz they've ruined who I wanted to be.
I wish I could time travel back to when
it all started and stop myself from pushing them away,
so I could stop myself taking on actions I now regret,
I wish I never had to think of all these.
I wish I never had to drown in pool of tears every night.

I wish I were just a normal person,
who doesn't give any fucks,
who doesn't care what they think,
who doesn't see co and sink into sorrow,
who doesn't overthink everything,
who doesn't habe to be this hysterical,
whose life isn't this fucked!

I wish the sun rose after all these years of unquenched rain.

I wish I found someone who'd love me for who I am,
someone who'd see all these everyone fails to,
someone who'd come into my life and pique a turnaround to my problems,
some whom I can entrust heart,
someone who'd make me see how amazing I am,
someone who'd be by me as I tread this journey to heal.
someone who'd make me happy forever.

© Dele