Sometimes we become so hurt numbness sets in.
Feeling nothing, feels like a win.
Even though you still wish for change to someday come.
You really feel okay with being numb.
At least you're not crying in the middle of the night.
Or worrying all the time with no release in sight.
After years of everything staying the same.
You began to not even care whose the blame.
Walking out of it all not feeling any emotions.
Setting your sights towards the ocean.
Continue to play your mind manipulating games.
I'm walking away all the same.
After 20 year's of all this.
I'll become the one everyone will miss.
My heart has been tugged, wripped, torn completely out of my chest.
No more playing games I know that's what's Best!!!!

I've truly forgiven and I'm moving on with my life.
I've taken out every last knife.
I won't be held hostage to the things I can not change or undo.
I think it's time you do something new.
Like, all that talk about forgiving the past.
Look's to me you're the one's making all this a task.
I'm not moving to a place I don't want to be.
I'm over all this cant y'all see?
If I have to remain numb, it's better for me that way.
I'll always love you all forever and a day.

written by: Amanda Mae