Not supposed to be saying names,
Not supposed to see some things,
Tired of always playing these games,
Waiting for, "..one of these days,"
Starting to keep notes, just in case,
Forgetting what it feels like to be safe,
Heart's turning cold and filling up with hate,
No way to release all of your rage,
Way too afraid to try running away,
Knowing that someone is making you pay,
For something you didn't do anyway,
Not a moment goes by without being afraid,
By the time you could tell, it's already too late,
All of these things, forever changing your fate,
Seems like I'm constantly in a panicky state,
There are so many things that I'd like to say,
Wish I could tell but, I'd better behave.
These are the games that they force me to play,
Hoping that we can be saved & I patiently wait,
Crazy, I know but, I feel so utterly betrayed,
So, sorry that things had to happen this way,
Wanted to be with you but, was kept at bay,
Hope that I'll get to see you again someday,
If you haven't already forgotten me,
Please, don't you ever stop loving me,
Because, I'll carry you with me the entire way.
I won't ever stop waiting for, "..one of these days."

© W. Helin