It sometimes feel like life goes on with or without you
Expectations are never achieved
The goal might never be obtained
Friends are smiling and winning
The only thing you feel is your heart beating.
You have lots to achieve with no time to prepare
Lord when would this sorrow end.
Take a deep breath they say but heck I can't even breath
My mind wanders far deeper than any oceans
Higher than any mountains
How then can control he made
Queens and kings of procrastination itself
I tell myself I'm not lazy
Yet I can't wake myself from this endless haze.
Why did I choose this..
Reason being it was hard, painful and soulcrushing
Doing this means proving to myself I can do it
But can I?
I am not angry
Just wondering what would happen if I stop comparing and start farering...
I am not sad
Just crying my way out of my sorrows
I am not lonely
Just enjoy being alone cause even I don't understand myself
I am not moody
Just have different emotions trying to dominate who rules my life
I am not depressed
Just adapted some coping mechanisms to seem normal
I am not crazy
Everyone else is just plain
I am not selfish
I just have boundaries and make it clear
I am not complicated
You just have to not understand to understand me.