I guess I was a bad friend, huh?
A terrible lover?
toxic?
So it's my fault?
You were everything to me.
And I mean EVERYTHING.
I felt like I wouldn't be able to breathe without you by my side.
Than you tell me you never loved me,
left me and acted like it was nothing.
And now you wanna say you're mad at me because apparently I was YOUR everything?
It didn't feel that way.
not when you texted me to say, "I don't have feelings for you. I never did. That's fine, right? No hard feelings."
Yeah. No big deal.
No suicidal tendencies and months of fucking therapy to undo what you did to me.
No big deal.
No scars on my legs and wishes that I could just slip into a coma.
You were fine.
You never told me you were upset with me.
You never said you had any issues.
I told you if I was ever doing anything wrong you can TELL ME.
Even when we broke up and we were just friends you NEVER said you were upset with me or the ways that I "handled things"
Now you don't even wanna talk to me.
You won't even tell me what I did wrong.
I gotta hear it from a third party.
And you say YOU'RE struggling to cope with ME?
You accuse me of so many things
You blame me for everything.
I was just like you though.
A kid who learned too much too fast and was trying their best to make it in the harshness of the world.
But no. No. It's fine. Whatever works for YOU and whatever makes YOU happy.
You can do whatever YOU want.
I don't care.
I didn't care if it hurt me.
Didn't care if I cried or bled or died.
As long as you were happy, that was good enough for me.
But I digress.
It's all MY fault.
It's my fault I have anxiety and I'm agoraphobic and it's hard for me to make plans and go out with all the stress of making it work.
It's my fault you never once told me...