To whom it may concern: i returned alll i earned to be burned , my true feelings are wrote and spoke in hopes that my desire to retire is revoked. im engulfed in self loathing i hate myself for my Constant and repeated failure n mistakes ,there is no greater suffering than living with my wasted life. I dont wanna make any desicions for myself anymore, if I could stay in rehab forever I would. at this point I'm Fucking Scared i will not make it back again if I relapse my mind and heart literally can't stand anymore misfortune,...