Keep it simple, keep it that, keep keeping any emotion completley detached
Push me away, keep me at a distance, cos I started bringing feelings and that wasnt permitted
Wasnt part of the deal, you made it clear-keep it simple-you were being sincere

I showed you my feelings I told you no lies, was too hard denying what I felt inside
It works for you, but not for me, Im a woman, I cant help how I feel
If I could, trust me, I'd not feel a thing, id match you, surpass you, be a stone hearted thing
Such would be my level of not showing emotion- you'd resort to check- is she actually alive, did she take her last breath?

Some before you, I never let close, they dared tell me they love me, or show how they felt, I pushed them away, kinda disgusted, cannot cope, feelings get messy-move from me
Who wants complex-its so claustraphobic, I never gave permission for your feelings-so fuck how you feel.
I was like-dont you dare love me, who gave you permission? makes me feels weird, makes me wanna go missing
So believe or not, I do get you, ive been in them similar shoes, emotions get messy and then we all lose.

Through the pandemic, I had to check, are you still alive, I send a simple text, check you online, you started to feel important, imprinted somewhat, on my mind, dont get it twisted, I love a lot, not just lovers
Are see a friend, a lover, Im not sure, but I feel I feel you, sometimes adore.
Wanna feel your skin feel its warmth, hear your heartbeat, feel your pulse, how else do I assess, do you care at all, why cant I tell, why am I even asking y'all.

I fixed up, just in time, coulda, woulda shoulda, fuck all that, you werent mine.
So now I stay distanced, where its safe, could be lights years away, but at least you escape
Back to robotic, I switch it off, I need to act like you easily forgot
I'm keeping it simple for both our sakes-I go back to that safer place.

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