when i woke today you were gone,
erased like you were never a past,
the connection we once had broken,
as if it was all in my head.

if this is some way of punishing me,
to feel the same heartache you do,
then you should know its working,
& i hate you for leaving me like this.

my heart has been aching, yearning for you,
ive tried to keep it grounded until we met,
but you know how poetry can be, romantic,
i just wish we could’ve talked more about it.

i guess its like that movie you spoke about,
memories being erased like it never was,
yet the feelings remained existing,
held deep inside their hearts.

if you truly never come back, ill find you,
i’ll scour that entire city of red bricks,
though i cant recall your face exactly,
but ill know its you when i feel it.

im going to to keep on writing everyday,
even if by you they are never read,
because you are the reason why,
the million and one thoughts,
like atoms scattered in my head,
sing poetically over & over again,
& i am so very thankful for you.


if this is truly goodbye,
if this is really the end,
i cant say those three words to you,
but ill tell you “i miss you” instead.



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