i am switching back into my life
before i got numb with all that pressure on me
before i had to grew up to once be a wife
before i drowned in this endless sea

i can grab onto this part in my brain
i want the memories to never end
but whatever i do, all i feel is pain
i wanna be accepted so i pretend

i am holding onto the light
the smile‘s on the faces of the people around
my only escape is to write
the screaming in my head, i am familiar to the sound

i am just trying to hold myself over the water
i am scared of what will come
if i‘ll once see the pain in the eyes of my daughter
til than i am me, just so numb
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