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Caged in my mind .
And when death knocked
I couldn't put myself to welcome it
In as much as I was tired
Tired of waking up a loser
Tired of waking up in the same position
As I was yesterday.
There was a part of me
That one part that wanted to live so bad
That part that kept of pushing
Yet there was that other part
The one that wanted to die so badly
And I was torn in between.
Different personalities in one person
One time I was so elated
One time I was so tired
The next moment I didn't know what I felt
All these emotions came as impulses
Until I couldn't recognise who I was
what was I made of ,and what for
All these ain't my fault
I am just a victim like some of you
But yet I can't stop Banging my head
Onto the wall of shame
Self blame All the time .
My heart is in pieces and I know it
But I'm hoples at this point.
I want to live like the rest but I'm caged in my past.
© fifi
#bipolar #selfblame
I couldn't put myself to welcome it
In as much as I was tired
Tired of waking up a loser
Tired of waking up in the same position
As I was yesterday.
There was a part of me
That one part that wanted to live so bad
That part that kept of pushing
Yet there was that other part
The one that wanted to die so badly
And I was torn in between.
Different personalities in one person
One time I was so elated
One time I was so tired
The next moment I didn't know what I felt
All these emotions came as impulses
Until I couldn't recognise who I was
what was I made of ,and what for
All these ain't my fault
I am just a victim like some of you
But yet I can't stop Banging my head
Onto the wall of shame
Self blame All the time .
My heart is in pieces and I know it
But I'm hoples at this point.
I want to live like the rest but I'm caged in my past.
© fifi
#bipolar #selfblame
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