Why do people always leave you when you're at your lowest? Is it the fact they can't handle the real you, the person you are when your not smiling or giving them advice. Some people will up and leave you without saying anything and it hurts especially when it's your best friend the person you told everything to. I thought you were better than everyone else that's why I chose you. People keep proving me wrong your not better. Your not a good friend if you just leave without saying anything. I thought we were closer you told yourself so many times but everyone you bring into your life leaves you. You never did anything for them to leave. They chose to leave when you were crying. They chose leave when you weren't you, and you think to yourself maybe if I didn't cry when I was with them they would have stayed. You think maybe the pain will go away but doesn't. So now you're thinking that cutting yourself is the only way to handle the sadness. You know you're not the only one, but you continue until it gets to the point your in the hospital. You say to yourself well everybody knows now. You feel this sadness hit you like a rock once the people who loved find out you hurt yourself. The pain just gets worse after this you try not hurting yourself and it kills you inside, because you feel like you don't deserve love. You think this world is better off without you, but you know it would kill you family to see you go but you don't think about that. All your thinking is it's better if I go. You say this world would be better without you. You will no longer hurt others. So you decide that you wanna kill yourself. Then one night your family leaves you home alone. You think to yourself it's the perfect night, you think nobody's going to care. You tell yourself that nobody will miss you. Next second you step off the ladder or the chair. Now you're dead there's nobody around that can save you. When your family gets home they call your name to come eat but you don't answer this time. Your mom runs up stairs to get you and as soon as she opens the door she drops to her knees crying. Next thing you know your whole family is there wondering why you did it. They wonder why you didn't tell them you were hurting. A few months ago some people have moved on and others still cry hearing your name but you didn't think of the people who would cry. If your ever suffering from depression or anything call for help because if you hurt or kill yourself it will kill others.