The joy and worry fill my cup,
I was told in a hurry i was eating for 2,
Beating my brain saying I'm depressed,
On this denial train knowing I'm just sick,
This was not where I was aiming,
But the most high said it was perfect timing,
13 years thinking I'm a host of no more kids,
there's most definitely something baking,
Without a smell it is definitely not a food baby,
Worries of my struggles I'm facing,
Wondering if I'm even capable of carrying,
The most high didn't bring me this far to worry,
I'm done questioning he showed himself to me,
Mind blowed knowing he forgive me for my sins,
I have been day by day repenting in my den,
Now its blessings on blessings,
But I have learned my lessons on lessons,
And I have earned my blessings,
For this bundle of joy is a message from my creator,
He will never leave me nor forsake me,
As he rewarded me for my progression,
As well as my seeking for understanding, knowledge, and forgiveness,
As I forgave those who did the worst things to me,
On top of forgiving myself,
I am humbled and at peace,
As he called me to the stage to receive my trophy,
With the understanding it's not over yet.


© Tea-Tea