I hate what I’ve done to you. I hate that I’ve hurt you. I love that I still love you but I hate my feelings are something I can’t undo. I want to be with you but I also want him. It’s so confusing and annoying. You are perfect for me, that’s the one thing I know- it’s the one thing I can see. But when it comes down to it the truth is so is he. I connect with you both in different ways. It’s like you’re two different shades he’s black and you’re gray. I’ve never felt so stuck in a situation… I’ve realized I’m going to be hurting either way and there’s no way that will ever end up changing. Eventually something’s gotta give though, eventually I will find my way back to the only thing I know. I’m losing hope but I’m trying to keep my faith that somehow my heart will guide me the right way. Even though I may not get that result today.

© Mary Kay Cunningham