The earth before me shrivels into lifelessness, I'm trapped. The darkness echoing with sneering remarks reminding me of how I failed to be good enough, to make them stay. The empty wind shrieks and howls in my ear the reminders that I am a failure. I am not clean. I am too broken. Trying to run, I turn and watch everyone I love burn before my very eyes, heart twisted to the breaking point from their shrieks of pain.  All at once, I wake up gasping for air. Yet this reality is not much better. I wish and wish and wish that I could escape this existence, but I can't wake up from this nightmare if I'm not even asleep.