Hey.

I've thought about the way you lied.

and all the times I really tried to love you.

Through all the name calling,

heartache falling,

and feeling embarrassed around me.

I never once put myself above you,

and I was wrong to do so.

You gripped me in your bittersweet promises,

and left me confused and begging for you.

And you said I never meant much.

Just a way to have some fun and be done.

But for me, you were my everything.

People say I love too hard,

but I always feel like I love not enough.

And I get my heartbroken and lying in the dust.

But it's always me who does something wrong.

I won't deny.

But I'm not a doormat and I won't let this fly.

You made mistakes, more than I did.

But in the end it's all on me.

Because even though the damage is still left like a water residue,

I hate myself because I truly do miss you (not).
© Liyah Lee