Im overwhelmed.
Im a diagnosis, a problem to be solved.
Its daily struggle with anxiety and depression.
A pot of water at a rolling boil.
My emotions stir bellow the surface.

This is too much,
The compassion can only go so far.
I wasnt taught these lessons,
I cant do this.
I want the gravity to implode me.
I want these feelings to stop bleeding out,
but the damn is broken and it wont stop pouring.

I talk and talk,
and think and think.
reflect and reflect.
But there's so much dirt i cant scrub off, my skin is peeling off.

I cant be kind, Im not kind, Im not nice, Im not strong, Im not enough. The love i needed, ill never get.

Im cruel and unlovable.
I ward people off so they dont see the ugly,
The parts that are rotting inside me, a sight that disgusts.
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