I feel as if I’m floating above my body.
Watching me make decisions that I will regret.
Hating what I see.
I watch myself cry helplessly,
As the day finally takes its toll on my fragile heart.
I watch myself fake a smile,
Trying desperately to prove that I am (not) okay.
I float above this person that I have grown to not recognize,
Unable to tell the difference from what is real and what is counterfeit.
I’m terrified that one day my out of body experience that I’ve felt for so long,
Will melt into reality,
Causing me to drift away indefinitely from the life that has impacted my every decision.
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