Creative Poem by Thokozani Ndinisa

Created time & date:
21:00 pm
08 May 2020

Title: Self Care

I have been there for everyone, But I have not given myself full attention…
Yes, everyone celebrates the sacrifice I have done for them…
But deep down in my heart…
I am breaking slowly,
It seems no one notice how broken I am inside my heart!
As I look strong outside but inside I am just like a little child, who is crying for help…

People calling me a blessing into their lives…
While I am suffering since no one seems to recognize my broken heart…
Yes, I am bleeding inside my heart…
I am crying for help….
Is there anyone who can remove the pains I am feeling I side my heart?

Each time I try to speak out about my emotions… They say stop complaining and to cry like a little child…Why I don't have anyone who is willing to give me an ear?
Yes, there is no one who wants to listen to my cry neither there's anyone who is ready to put himself or herself into my shoes?

People hurt others intentionally, occasionally. It's few people who will protect you when they have chosen to love you unconditional in this world.

I am what I am today because of the bitterness I did about putting myself last in everything I do in this world…

You did everything for everyone but forgotten to love yourself…
I don't deny I have failed myself and I don't blame anybody for everything I did to myself…
Yes, everyone knows how caring I am are, but I don't value yourself as an individual….

You don't even think for yourself…
You undermine yourself, and you are killing yourself slowly, my dear….
As you always put yourself last in everything you do in this world!

It's time I put myself first…
Yeah… I have neglected myself for too long now…
I am starting all over again
I give myself a new chance,
It's time to let go of everyone…
Who has destroyed me and who has used me for his or her selfish reasons…
Yes, I forgive myself, and I am letting go of all the things I did to myself which I am not proud of…
Time to be used by others, it's over…
Yes, time to be taken for granted it's over
Never ever again while I undermine myself neither will I
Put myself last in this world…
I am starting all over again,
Yes, I am writing a new chapter about my life…
I come first, and I love who I am…
Furthermore, I am proud of how I look, and I am grateful about the character I have… Yes, it's my time to feel special again.
Beyond reasonable doubt I didn't value myself, but now I have realized my mistakes, and I am fixing them starting from now!

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