Whats wrong? I'll ask him. Just shut up. Is the response. "Dumb" "pathetic" "annoying". Maybe I wasn't ever enough. Why do words surround me. I should shut up. Stop texting first. Stop calling first. Stop caring. Not like he does. Maybe if I just shut up and died. Just shut up. They say and hope I'll stay. Their words cut me deeper. Stop suffercating yourself, I hate suffercating myself. It hurts. Waking up everyday, wondering how I got my life. I need to shut up more. Don't I? Then I'll be happy...why don't you care? Do I offend you? Why do I try to run when im paralyzed. why do I try to breathe in water? Why are everyone's hands at my throat? What did I do? am I a monster?