Wide awake with my heart racing
Paranoia is spreading outside my brain

What am I doing? Barely go outside
Going out of my bedroom can be too scary
Panic thinking nearby cars are cops
Coming to search my house with dogs
I rarely eat more than a meal

I make a lot of plans to be more healthy
It's always a waste, I know it too
I will never consistently reach any goal
My life has become misery with short durations where I feel some pleasure

My social life has...