I am in pain
Constant agony as I see you look at me
With those dark eyes that scream my uselessness
I hated you but now I love your gaze on me
You wanted to ruin me
Make me hate myself
Yes, It did work as I loathe my being in an inhumane sense
I forgave your for I was at fault
I wanted to believe I wronged you by making you look at me
I put it on me for something you made me believe I did
I wronged you with my presence
Believing that was still a mistake
Looking into what you said, talked about
You are wrong, very wrong
You made me hate my existence
Hate walking the earth and breathing the same air as you
You thought you were special
Held yourself so high for I put you there
I forgave you for my damaged soul
The tears that were shed for someone as evil as you
I forgive you as you are pitied by all your friends
I also pity you
Choosing to forgive what was done is out of pity
I feel sorry for the state you are in
Now as you look at me and think I still need you
Wanting to breathe you in and keep you to myself
Deep inside my fractured heart
I feel bad that you think am still under that forbidden spell
I wanted to be in it for eternity
Don't look at me for I will only feel for you
Not the feelings you want to be felt
But the disgust I see in your being
It has come and gone
It will never return
I have forgiven the damage cause to my already torn heart
But I will never forgive the ego it brought you

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