Tears fall out of my eyes,
everytime I think of him.
It's not something huge,
just another memory lane.

It's like a train of thought,
I can't ever forget.
I try to distract myself,
but I am back to you again.

Is it something wrong with me?
That I keep recalling you.
You threw me out of your life,
like I was nothing to you.

Drunken eyes, white lies,
You play along for till it helps you survive.
You leave when you ruin everything that was mine,
you leave when you think everything's fixed in your eyes.

Everything I see, reminds me of you,
You got your R,P,N and B but left your S.
I open a social, I am taken back to you,
I open a folded page or a unread message, my first thought has always been you but that wasn't the case for you.

You look moved on but is your heart still at the same place?
You look more carefree and happy when I see your face.
I want to kill you but I have a soft spot,
you're my weakness when I am not.

What did make you distant?
me being too close or you just getting bored of the consistent.
You have so much fear of commitment that you can't even see,
how you're so half hearted and how much it broke me.

You think you are at the top, you have the biggest amount of ego,
if only you could drop it for genuine love,
you wouldn't have been seemed so easy,
you think you did the right thing when all you did was break hearts in the dark.

Sunshine was my nickname and still is,
lived in the darkness for someone to guide me back,
chose the wrong person, paid the price,
all to be never cared for but to others you still are nice.

Don't you think I loved you too much?
too much that I forgot myself.
doubt you everything about the problems you left,
I was just used and left discarded.

I hope you find someone but someone not better than me,
I hope someone breaks your heart as often and hardly as mind had been.....



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