Nicole, you're still engraved on my soul
Its been a long time, sure
I just haven't ever let you go
You were my first of many things
I remember lots of fun and crazy things
But I'm not sure if you know what you really have meant to me.
One of my darkest memories
The summer you came back from Philly
We ignited right back up
Of course we did, both of us hot stuff
Yet I saw the sickness in you
Young and dumb I did it too
We continued our shenanigans on
Till one day I was driving and your best friend Stephanie was calling
I knew something was wrong
Remember exactly where I was and what she said, couldn't even respond and hung up when she told me our bestie, my baby, Nicole, was dead
19 years old I was, you were 18
I'll never forget my first taste of mourning
I did it poorly, horribly
Using anything to drown reality and pain
I came to your viewing a total mess and am still ashamed
Tears falling to the floor
I rose my head and told your father I'm sorry
He said, "I don't have to worry anymore."
As you know my dear
it's been a rocky road
I'm lucky I'm still here
Maybe a better word is blessed
Definitely have an angel watching above my head

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