Searching for repreive
I hide, I yeild, I cry
The wall of fear slams into me
and I skid backwards, afraid

The words follow me off the pages
swirling around me
choking, joking
baiting me for a response, in a language I don't comprehend

My heart jumps in its cage
My brain scrambles for a way out
My fingers type furiously
As though tape covers my mouth.

The expression of thoughts become a foreign language
I can't convey images onto a page
nor music into a paper
nor meaning into words

My breath freezes
My eyes widen
My brain realizes
I'm trapped.

The black and whites of words on pages
Morph into scares and stares and expectations
Expectations which I'll never meet
Yet remain there, waiting to greet

me
the next time I sit
at my computer
with a paper due at midnight.

© WyldChyld

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