Shit is getting bad again, I can feel it deep down within. Every time I think it’s going to stop the pain just comes back around again. I think it wants to be my friend, but I don’t want to let it in.

So instead I drown it all out with alcohol. I drink until I’m numb or don’t feel anything at all. I lay down and write my heart out. Cry until the tears can no longer fall down.

Shit is getting bad again, I don’t know how much more I can take- I don’t know how much more I can withstand. Shit is getting bad again, and no matter how hard I’m trying to hold it in i’m not sure that I can. The pain wants to be my best friend… but I’d rather stay frenemies instead.


© Mary Kay Cunningham