i hate the way i smile,
i hate the way i laugh.
i sound like a witch,
or a dolphin,
or a pig thats dying.

i hate the way i look,
i look like a boy, even if i try to put on make-up,
like mascara
or a lipstic
but
you know the saying
'lipstic on a pig'
and thats how i feel when i put a red tint on my lips.
i whis to look like those girls on pinterest or tiktok.
they are so pretty it makes me jealous.

i hate my weight, even though it's normal, but i don't feel like it.
so sometimes i starve myself,
even though i know that will not help.
or ice is also a good snack.

the thing i hate the most is my emotions.
its like a wave in the ocean, you never know how the wave will look like.
just like i dont know what emotions will I feel.
sometimes i feel happy, then sad.
and then the sadness turns into anger, and I'm mean to everyone again.