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EMPTY
Its 2 a.m. and I'm trying to sleep,
not being able to do so
I looked out at the sky,
the moonlight seeping through my room,
so serene.
Everything around me became bright
yet it failed to light me up.
Something inside me felt lonely,
felt so dark, something inside me felt empty
and that something wasn't inside me,
it was me!
In this world full of possibilities and opportunities
I still feel meaningless.
Every day just like the sun I put on a positive smile
covering all my sadness underneath,
just like the sun I was lonely
yet shined so bright for the world.
Every rainy day, I gave up my umbrella
to shield all my loved ones
so that I could walk in the rain,
the raindrops mixed with my tears
made me feel like it understood me
more than my umbrella that shielded me from it.
Every rainbow reminded me of the times when,
after every storm comes a rainbow,
but my rainbow,
though colorful and vibrant to others,
to me, it showed lifeless and weak.
Every night the world was twinkling
like the stars but I was like the moon,
radiant on the one side,
following everyone wherever they went
so that they are never left alone,
to listen to all their sad stories,
but nobody knew about the dark side of the moon,
nobody knew that the one who was listening,
the one who was shining for others
needed a ray of hope.
I hide everything under my fake smile.
When I was little I was afraid of the monsters under my bed
but now I am afraid of the monsters underneath myself.
I am afraid of myself,
that one day my monsters will completely take over me,
and I won't even be able to put on a smile that is real or even fake.
I'm holding everything inside of me never opening up to anyone
and my monsters are feeding on it,
I'm afraid that my monsters will completely take over me,
pulling me into their darkness
and never be able to see that ray of hope,
and just completely leaving me empty and hollow.
© Rhea susan
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#emptiness #emptysoul #empty #numb #nofeelings #darktimes #Darkness #sadtruth #breath
not being able to do so
I looked out at the sky,
the moonlight seeping through my room,
so serene.
Everything around me became bright
yet it failed to light me up.
Something inside me felt lonely,
felt so dark, something inside me felt empty
and that something wasn't inside me,
it was me!
In this world full of possibilities and opportunities
I still feel meaningless.
Every day just like the sun I put on a positive smile
covering all my sadness underneath,
just like the sun I was lonely
yet shined so bright for the world.
Every rainy day, I gave up my umbrella
to shield all my loved ones
so that I could walk in the rain,
the raindrops mixed with my tears
made me feel like it understood me
more than my umbrella that shielded me from it.
Every rainbow reminded me of the times when,
after every storm comes a rainbow,
but my rainbow,
though colorful and vibrant to others,
to me, it showed lifeless and weak.
Every night the world was twinkling
like the stars but I was like the moon,
radiant on the one side,
following everyone wherever they went
so that they are never left alone,
to listen to all their sad stories,
but nobody knew about the dark side of the moon,
nobody knew that the one who was listening,
the one who was shining for others
needed a ray of hope.
I hide everything under my fake smile.
When I was little I was afraid of the monsters under my bed
but now I am afraid of the monsters underneath myself.
I am afraid of myself,
that one day my monsters will completely take over me,
and I won't even be able to put on a smile that is real or even fake.
I'm holding everything inside of me never opening up to anyone
and my monsters are feeding on it,
I'm afraid that my monsters will completely take over me,
pulling me into their darkness
and never be able to see that ray of hope,
and just completely leaving me empty and hollow.
© Rhea susan
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
#emptiness #emptysoul #empty #numb #nofeelings #darktimes #Darkness #sadtruth #breath
