My kitten
died yesterday.
so small and little.
not even two weeks old.
a little fur ball,
so full of life.
taken from me,
my baby gone,
in the blink of an eye.
my heart just hurts.
tears won’t stop pouring
from my eyes.
some might say I’m dramatic,
but I can’t help but cry.
she was goofy and had cute little bug eyes.
she was so little,
she always looked like a rat after her baths.
her name was cheez-it,
she was such a silly little thing.
she used to crawl around so funny,
and always make me laugh.
my little orange sweetheart.
I’m so sorry I wasn’t there when you died.
I picked you up,
you laid cold in my hands.
I freaked out.
I didn’t believe it at first.
I didn’t want to understand.
my baby that always cuddled up to my neck when she slept.
lied breathless in my hands.
not a single movement.
not a single sound.
I’m so sorry.
I feel like I could have done better,
like I could have somehow prevented your death.
I feel like I failed you.
I feel like it was all my fault.
maybe if I would have
found you sooner you’d still be alive.
I know you were sick, but I had hope you would get better.
from the day you were first brought home,
I felt the happiest I’ve felt in been in awhile,
but now that you’re gone I’m not doing too well.
I have your brother, cookie here, still in good shape.
but if that changes, I don’t know if I can deal.
I don’t think I can handle the pain.
I wish you were still here, my heart still it aches.
I hope me and my family gave you a good life while you were here.
I just wish you could have stayed.

Rest in peace Cheez-it
5/6/2024 - 5/20/2024

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