I didn't remembered being only Your best friend was like this.
I haven't felt that feeling for so long...
Only more.
Or less.
I never realized how heartbroken I actually was.
But I know now.

I just forgot how does it feel
being friends.
But to be honest, it's way more
fun like this.
I know I don't tell you this,
But I really appreciate.
Like everything.

That You care about me.
That You ask me how I feel.
I can't say more right now,
But there's a lot more.
I promise.

I feel like I ruined something.
I don't know if I did.
And I'm just so scared of
hurting you.
In any way.

I just don't know anymore.
I feel so lost.
I want to find my place.
But what if there is none?

I feel like I forgot how does being loved feels.
I mean,
I know some people
probably do.

I just don't feel it.
Or it's not the right people.
My head is just a whole mess.
I don't hear anything from my own thoughts.

And there's you,
Asking me 'what are you thinking?'
But I simply don't have an answer.
I'm not thinking.
I'm just zoning out of the world.
I've created myself one where I'm
'Happy'.

I stand in the bathroom,...