Every thing left a hole in me,
Every silence put a seal on me.
Silence, Solitude and shame,
in a lonely hour of night
I left myself to me in such a disdain.
If your words were meant to mean me harm,
I am ready to take down this swarm.
No matter I stay in heaven or hell,
I live to live under your spell.
This are the words, I say to myself again and again,
but you are too angry to see
that I define your pain as my pain.
A wholesome part of me wants to be with.
Be there when the things are being hard for you.
But I can't be and that is the truth.
This foreign land, the solitude that I bestowed upon myself is the reason of sorrow and a chained freedom.
It is making my soul go pale,
and leaving us a troubled tale.
I wonder all this time what you are feeling, what would we be doing now, if I had been there for now, had been right next to you.
I am starving not because I dont care about my hunger
while I pause the thoughts to be pondered.
I am starving because I am hungry for your validation.
My starvation, your anger
And so many unspoken feelings that have lingered.
We are walking on eggshells, are we not ?
This path isn't shaded enough as we thought.
But I will try , like I always did.
I will try for every ounce of my worth
because I am yours to keep and I will prove you my worth.

© sunshine07