My hands, freezing cold
The chill seeps deep into my bones
A blank stare is all I'm able to hold
But inside I'm terrified, outside frozen as stone

A confrontation, sits in front of me
Yelling, it pierces my sensitive ears, a candle no longer lit
It takes me back to my childhood, tension and heat
Now less heated, but enough to feel as if someone will get bit

Something simple, something unimportant
That's what the arguement's about
But after all I've seen it still feels potent
And my mind is filled with doubt

Frozen in place, still filled with immense dread
Memories still flooding, terror and fear
Harsh words still ringing in my head
But I know for a fact that it won't happen here

Why am I scared?
I've seen this before
Nothing will tear
So why am I lost in a shore?

A memory flickers
One of me and my mother
A fan knocks over, her yelling, a hinder
I did nothing wrong, yet she yells out another

I suddenly realize how much that scene affected me
Now I give a terrified flinch everytime a voice is raised
I'm just glad that those memories never ended violently
However I'm upset, with how they make me feel caged

#trauma
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