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Missing You
It's said that a first love will never die, just the feeling alone will always stick by your side, now wonderin' so many years gone by how the fuck did I ever survive?
Vivid memories of her still my ride or die, now I can only picture her swinging side by side, from the rafters in the ceilin' the image ain't very appealin. But it's as real as it gets. She had enough, life is shit, can't handle it, tie a noose and just call it quits.
So many days and nights pass me by and I just wanna say goodbye but I can't, I was stripped off my chance. Wishing I could go back to the last time we talked to gather all the facts, then subtract the good from the bad so memories of good where all that you had.
It's crazy how what was just a friend, left such a large imprint, when they finally decide to take their life, feels like I got stuck with a knife. Our souls got tied so fucking tight, now you enter my dreams like every night. mistakes already made, you've taken your life. I wish I could go back and just hold you tight.
Dear Katy, remember all the dirt we did? Cars we stole? Places we robbed? Both held down jobs. Fuck who do I kid. With you was a first, a start, a beginning and end. I found in you my very best friend. Not ever the need to pretend. For you, your name, I will always defend. Others, around us, left jealous and bent. For them, really? I couldn't give shit. For you, surely, All that I get, got, gathered and spent. That's just for a hint of your mind in a box. The struggle is real with negative thoughts, nobody could never tell me it's not. For you, with my life, yours would be bought. Stand in my way, you'd fucking be fought. I'm pushing right through, winning or not. These lessons we learned, each separately taught, got me stuck in my head, Inescapably caught. Convincing myself of emotional flaws. Suicidal thoughts is what it all caused. Life moves so fast, why can't we push pause. Consequence free and notice the cause. This is the fine print in life, this is it's clause. constantly wondering why one does what it does..
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Vivid memories of her still my ride or die, now I can only picture her swinging side by side, from the rafters in the ceilin' the image ain't very appealin. But it's as real as it gets. She had enough, life is shit, can't handle it, tie a noose and just call it quits.
So many days and nights pass me by and I just wanna say goodbye but I can't, I was stripped off my chance. Wishing I could go back to the last time we talked to gather all the facts, then subtract the good from the bad so memories of good where all that you had.
It's crazy how what was just a friend, left such a large imprint, when they finally decide to take their life, feels like I got stuck with a knife. Our souls got tied so fucking tight, now you enter my dreams like every night. mistakes already made, you've taken your life. I wish I could go back and just hold you tight.
Dear Katy, remember all the dirt we did? Cars we stole? Places we robbed? Both held down jobs. Fuck who do I kid. With you was a first, a start, a beginning and end. I found in you my very best friend. Not ever the need to pretend. For you, your name, I will always defend. Others, around us, left jealous and bent. For them, really? I couldn't give shit. For you, surely, All that I get, got, gathered and spent. That's just for a hint of your mind in a box. The struggle is real with negative thoughts, nobody could never tell me it's not. For you, with my life, yours would be bought. Stand in my way, you'd fucking be fought. I'm pushing right through, winning or not. These lessons we learned, each separately taught, got me stuck in my head, Inescapably caught. Convincing myself of emotional flaws. Suicidal thoughts is what it all caused. Life moves so fast, why can't we push pause. Consequence free and notice the cause. This is the fine print in life, this is it's clause. constantly wondering why one does what it does..
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