Nothing fascinates me than thinking of writing my own suicide note
At least I'll get to pour out my heart my heart in a book and let people read it in my absence.
Reading it my absence means I won't get to see or hear any of their critics about my choice.

I often hear people saying; that life is a gift from God
but life feels like a miserable choice I have to deal with on a daily. it's hard for me to live, too hard for me to survive.

Folks do say suicide is not an option
they're right though. it's the answer
it's the only alternate way of numbing the pains and getting over it all

Am I being selfish for thinking this?
am I letting many people down by doing this?
I don't think so . they'll be better off without me.

I have a friend now, whom I will live for eternity
it's standing right beside me
ready to collect my soul
something tells me the devil is playing tricks on me
but I know that if let the grimm ripper do it's work it would be over once and for all

It's getting too now
my vision is blurry
I'm drifting away to the abode of death
forgive me sweetheart
I could have done it differently but I had no other choice
© Ethel Chidubem