Inspired by the Lana del Rey song - Ride
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There’s a war in my mind
That I can’t seem to escape it, I can’t let it go
I continuously ask the universe to free me from my self deprecating cage
I try to hold onto this make shift reality
But I feel all alone
Maybe I’ve sinned too much in my past life
Maybe the anxiety’s of my present are catching up to me
Maybe I just care to much
Maybe that’s what’s ruining me
That’s what’s bringing me to my knees
I just want to feel mentally free
The world has stuck itself deep into my psyche
Told me how to act
How to be
How to breathe
How to think
I ask the universe repeatedly to free me
Burnt out and feeling alone
I can’t even make long lasting friendships
Looking at my back mirror
Counting up all my dead ends
I’m so good at fake talking
Fake walking
Been an actor all my life
Secretly I’m so insecure that it’s torturing me
Can’t decide if I should stay in the dark or come out into the light
Been battling these mental demons all my life
I’m stuck in a metabolic cage
It’s alive, it’s all around me
Covered in thrones, sun flowers and pretty red rose bushes
I want to escape so much that this depression is consuming me
Don’t know what to truly believe
Am I the bad guy or is it all just in my head
Am I the self absorbed victim that I say I am
I just feel angry all the time
And sad
Can’t escape this manipulated reality
Want to run away
But I can’t escape myself
No matter the drugs I take
Or the content I watch
Or the people I externally escape into
I ask the universe, I ask god
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