You know not so long ago I nearly killed myself. I had this blade under my pillow, and my mind kept telling me to act... But when it was time to open my veins one last time, I cried. And I collapsed with fatigue from several days of almost no sleep. The most striking thing for me was to say these words 'At least I'm here today', the person thought my mother didn't want me to come.. I replied coldly to his questions with 'No because I almost shot myself.. I didn't feel guilty, I wasn't guilty.. But his eyes looked lost, scared maybe even sad.. I felt guilty at that precise moment, I regret having said it like that but I did not control my words. I needed to write because after that, she talked to me for a long time and made me laugh too, so that I wouldn't think about it anymore. And I find his act more fantastic than anything else. I would like to tell him thank you.. I'll tell him one day.. I've probably already told him.. and I'm thinking about it even more now that I've relapsed so I tell myself that it will be better one day!

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