To finally wake so wide up, 9:27am,on March 28,2020... It's time!...

Finally no longer in so much pain,
open the window I smell the rain!
Eyes are wide open, wipe the shit out my way
TODAY is day one,
TODAY is the first day!..
Start trying all over,
want to do this "life " thing right
open my eyes in the morning
and close them each night.
My body's done fighting,
My mind?.... It's a mess!!!
But I'll crawl on the floor
get up and get dressed!
My hair gets the brush, my armpits...mmm...
now their good.
Starting to live 'life' the way that I should.
Going crazy, around and around in my head,
from having spent the whole week in the bed.
Body's shut down, you just want to die.
But the difference right now?
Right now I WILL do this, its much more than try.
There are little ones,
those are who wait,
I'm meant to be their mother,
that is their fate!
I've got to make sure their happy,
and have GOOD memories to share.
I'm sure they each have a story,
they've been EVERYWHERE!!
Their all so strong willed, and all very smart.
And though all that they've been through, still have big hearts ❤
I PROMISE I'm coming,..
Today's just the start!!!

for my babies