I feel frustrated, feel loose, feeling like if I could do what I want to, what would i do?
I ain't smart, neither a genius, all I'm is me,
and i know it isn't something they give away a job for.
Told myself, i want this and that, now even i can't figure out what the hell i want, gimme what the hell i want. Can't ask for help, i know what you'd say, you're good as you are, you can make it just go for it and all this shit, again! I've tried hard, legit! still I can't make it, so i tell myself now, "you're not born for this" i wish somehow I can make it or else tell me a way so i can get Outta it, without anyone knowing....
I'm afraid of doing it and I'm afraid of loosing it, even scared of giving up, 'cause it isn't in my blood!
Someone comes and tell me a few good words so i feel like being on a rocket, and after a couple of hours pass, I'm Outta fuel, how? don't ask me, i don't know.
I think my mind's a mess, it cares and it cares but never go for actions, i ain't negative, neither am i depressed, just thinking it over, so practical. i sometimes off my hatts to the ones who keep on going, one day i could feel them 'cause i knew they wanted something so important, now i can't understand them at all 'cause i ain't keep going for what's important. i was never wrong, this time i dunno the cause, i won't say it but i can feel it that ' I'm so done' and I'm afraid of speaking it out 'cause i can't give up, this is the only thing I've learned so hard. "Never give up"


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