I've always been afraid of blank pages.
There's something terrifying about them;
they intimidate the hell out of me.
I'm too afraid I'd mess it up,
knowing all too well that even if I try to fix it,
it'll never go back to the way it was before:
clean, spotless.

Maybe that's the reason why
I've always been afraid to jump, to gamble, to give my all.
Knowing all too well that even if I try,
still, it wouldn't be enough.
I'll never be enough.

You're not worth that much to them.
Not because you're not worth the try, no....