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The boys I have loved
It started during a Summer holidays when we promised to always have each others back
We were best friends but I liked you a lot that time.
I was just 12 and you were way older . But something brewed in me at time ; I'm not sure it's love but I was drown to you. my parents got suspicious and you started avoiding me somehow .
i miss our days of riding bikes and horse back riding , where you pretended to be the horse while I hopped on your back . I was 12 and that was the purest of love I have felt.
And here it begins: At sixteen you told me you love me and would do anything to keep me. I believed you at my own risk I guess.
you thought me how to cook and do things accordingly.
I was sixteen when you took away my virginity and told me you would take responsibility. I was sixteen when I started playing the role of a full time girlfriend.
My life at seventeen was like a good sad lyrics. you could either sing to it or cry to it. it's your choice. I was seventeen when I was asked to get an abortion.
I was seventeen when I fell in love with the tiny human growing inside me.
I was seventeen when I ran away from home.
I was seventeen when it all began.
It was supposed to be my 18th birthday and I was supposed to party and hang out with friends like every other girl do.
But I turned 18 inside the labour room screaming and yelling.
And yeah I was eighteen when I became a mother.
You brought me home and asked me to be your wife and I said yes cos I felt we were meant to be together.
I started carrying real burden at eighteen.
I sometimes I wonder if it was love o or Iwas naive and stupid. But some how I'm glad you're still by my side.
We broke up when I was nineteen,
reasons best known to you. but I was glad you took your son. I'm not a bad mother but I needed to empower myself for my child and I can't do if he's with me .
Days goes by and I realized how much I love you both.
I prayed endlessly that you may return to me. prayer answered, you did,
with my little prince shining bright beside you.
I was 21 when you said: let's get married and we did after one year of yet another proposal.
I will be 23 soon and not much have changed.
I'm still trying to figure my shit out and the little light that keeps me burning is my own little family.
yeah that's the boys I have loved and I do hope you realized I have been talking about one man all along
© Ethel Chidubem
We were best friends but I liked you a lot that time.
I was just 12 and you were way older . But something brewed in me at time ; I'm not sure it's love but I was drown to you. my parents got suspicious and you started avoiding me somehow .
i miss our days of riding bikes and horse back riding , where you pretended to be the horse while I hopped on your back . I was 12 and that was the purest of love I have felt.
And here it begins: At sixteen you told me you love me and would do anything to keep me. I believed you at my own risk I guess.
you thought me how to cook and do things accordingly.
I was sixteen when you took away my virginity and told me you would take responsibility. I was sixteen when I started playing the role of a full time girlfriend.
My life at seventeen was like a good sad lyrics. you could either sing to it or cry to it. it's your choice. I was seventeen when I was asked to get an abortion.
I was seventeen when I fell in love with the tiny human growing inside me.
I was seventeen when I ran away from home.
I was seventeen when it all began.
It was supposed to be my 18th birthday and I was supposed to party and hang out with friends like every other girl do.
But I turned 18 inside the labour room screaming and yelling.
And yeah I was eighteen when I became a mother.
You brought me home and asked me to be your wife and I said yes cos I felt we were meant to be together.
I started carrying real burden at eighteen.
I sometimes I wonder if it was love o or Iwas naive and stupid. But some how I'm glad you're still by my side.
We broke up when I was nineteen,
reasons best known to you. but I was glad you took your son. I'm not a bad mother but I needed to empower myself for my child and I can't do if he's with me .
Days goes by and I realized how much I love you both.
I prayed endlessly that you may return to me. prayer answered, you did,
with my little prince shining bright beside you.
I was 21 when you said: let's get married and we did after one year of yet another proposal.
I will be 23 soon and not much have changed.
I'm still trying to figure my shit out and the little light that keeps me burning is my own little family.
yeah that's the boys I have loved and I do hope you realized I have been talking about one man all along
© Ethel Chidubem
