you were gone. for so freaking long.
you havent been part of my life anymore,
and everything changed in contrast to before.
but with the time this was okay for me,
and I created a new way to be.
I always hoped for a change,
but everyone thought it'll be strange.

but now we needed to meet again,
and you didnt even felt like a friend.
just like a stranger in front of me,
you sat there looking so simple and free.
I couldnt listen close, I chose to go,
but you kept telling lies, I just know.

I was so scared to share the same room,
but you looked like you finally started to bloom.
you looked so happy or was it just fake?
I dont really know, but since then I'm never awake.
I still dont know what I'm feeling or not,
because everyday my head is changing our plot.

© Julessss