i want to write about everything
i feel like i could
i could talk about loving the simplicity
of my bedroom walls because it makes the room feel less loud

i could write about my sisters room
because her walls are very loud
but the loudness of her room
can be very comforting

i could write about the victim complex
i seem to have in the rest of my writing
why i sound scarred
why i sound more hurt than healed

i could write about how everything
that anyone meaningful has ever said
has sounded like a promise
"i'll text you when you get better"
"i'll quit doing drugs"
"i'll keep you safe."

i could write about the guy im talking to
how im self sabotaging so
if anything bad happens
i can blame myself and move on
or let go because i feel we'd never work anyways.

i could talk about how i cried today
because i just want my family to be happy
how i feel like the middle child
between my two youngest siblings

i could write about my identity
and how ive never felt like i can be myself.
which has made performing for others
into also performing for myself.

i wrote this as kind of an experiment. i really dont know what to write about right now. i hope you enjoyed it :)

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