I wonder what is happening to me as a person.. I was this cute lil innocent baby gurl not caring even for herself.. when my mom was the first and my dad was the last preson to choose my clothes. When I was unbothered by rejections. When I was not too crazy about my environment. When someone else's existence didn't matter to me. Look at me now, my insecurities are becoming unhidden secrets. My acceptance is all what matters. I am not included in things any more. I want to be loved, but why? Why am I feeling all this? Why do I need to be loved? why do I want to be stared and prayed for? Is asking all this considered greedy or selfish? Am I okay as a person? When my day was made, after eating my fav candies, then my days are empty now cus the only thing which can make me Happy is long stares with moon which comes only in night... Im broken somewhere... I need to be fixed...When I am acting as a therapist, listener, a friend, or just a human, I too want to be understood, felt and loved.
Remember dear darling who is still reading
Understanding this idiot is hard.. But not impossible. Few efforts will get you there. But the problem sticks because no one even wants to put efforts.
The only thing I would say is navya is not just a name, a human, a Junglee, a jhuthi, a bachhii, a dumbass
But sweetheart...
Navya is an emotion which is not easy to feel..