Paradoxical I am,
sometimes I say
I am the biggest winner,
sometimes I say
I am the destined loser.
Paradoxical I am,
sometimes I say
I am ecstatic,
sometimes I say
I am underwhelmed.
Yes,
my emotions
betray me,
my actions
never promise
to tryst with certainty,
my performance
always veer.
Am I fighting with myself?
Am I testing myself?
Am I lost in the eerie world?
Yes,
paradoxical I am,
sometimes
I am the biggest winner,
sometimes
I am the destined loser.
© sushil