yhh..it is one sided
but I can't,
I can't help but think one day you would be mine,
I kept holding on to this tiniest bit of hope despite your heart,
you don't love me. it can be blurry cos of the miles,
but I don't have to be "Einstein smart" to read between the lines,
and some days I give up,
I totally cave in and accept that love is not for all,
I never allow myself wild expectations so I get a little less hurt,
yes, then we got along, I guess we did flirt but we were so young,
Now, I don't see you often, hell I haven't seen you in years,
and the memories we had together I've gathered, relieving and relieving again each of em,
you grown now and here's the thing,
picture this' your castle got renovated, more bigger, much better but you're yet to explore,
would you like the new design?
or would you prefer the former?
will you find it intimidating now that it is bigger n wider?
so, I desperately want to meet the you now,
no, not to profess my love,
To try lettin you go,
I need to leave the past behind,
I need to stop relieving old memories,
I need to create new ones,
I need to stop feeling you,
but I'm scared I would fall harder,
I'm scared my heart wouldn't stop racing and you'll see through me like an hour glass,
I'm scared seeing you, wouldn't change a thing,
and I'll be back to...

Trying to fight the attraction,
my stomach in knots but you not feeling the tension,
masking it all up, I wouldn't want you seeing my intentions,
or
maybe my heart will finally let go,
and I would be free of every fraction,
sighs' love is simple but complicated,
a tournado but can be quiet,
love happens and mine is one-sided

© rookie poet