I hurt a man once
about three years ago
with my fistful words
after that
he wanted nothing to do with me
and rightfully so
I was an unhealed creature without a compass
jumping into something where
I didn’t know where I wanted it to go
Sometimes I wonder if I hadn’t said
those words then maybe we’d
still be together
because my I’m sorry was
the wrong type of glue
My counselor said I needed to believe
in God’s perfect timing
and that if it was meant to be
then we would’ve just worked things out
But I thought it was more of a dealbreaker
and the deal was that
I needed to be respectful
and the Breaker still needed to heal
And now, needs to forgive herself
I need to be happy for who I am right now
And honestly, I can say that I am