This was gonna be my suicide letter
Tonight my mother, I'm sailing across an ocean made of my tears searching for a peaceful death to set my soul free.
Tonight my mother, both sides of my pillow are ruined and even my bed sheet, I wish I didn't wake u up I tried my best to hold it inside me so that I would be the only one who hears my screams.
Tonight my mother, the room is so dark that I can't even see the darkness, will it be that dark in my own grave?
Tonight my mother, I want to unsee everything I've seen so far because it's so heavy to carry all these trauma with u all way long I don't wanna take it with me to my grave, I want to unmeet everyone I met, I don't want their memories to stick with me, I want my heart back, I want that innocent cheerful kid back, they ruined my heart with their dirty hands mother, I was a Barby they tuned me to Annabelle, they brainwashed me with their lies, they broke me and left me right after.
Tonight my mother, my heart aches, the pain is getting worse and I want it to end so bad that I'm in the kitchen...
Tonight my mother, both sides of my pillow are ruined and even my bed sheet, I wish I didn't wake u up I tried my best to hold it inside me so that I would be the only one who hears my screams.
Tonight my mother, the room is so dark that I can't even see the darkness, will it be that dark in my own grave?
Tonight my mother, I want to unsee everything I've seen so far because it's so heavy to carry all these trauma with u all way long I don't wanna take it with me to my grave, I want to unmeet everyone I met, I don't want their memories to stick with me, I want my heart back, I want that innocent cheerful kid back, they ruined my heart with their dirty hands mother, I was a Barby they tuned me to Annabelle, they brainwashed me with their lies, they broke me and left me right after.
Tonight my mother, my heart aches, the pain is getting worse and I want it to end so bad that I'm in the kitchen...