Holding my breath waiting for the nightmare to end,
Youre gone and I dont know how to continue.

So many things I wanted you to see, so many things I wanted to be,
Now you're gone and you'll never know who I am.

So many thoughts spreading thru my mind like cancer,
Making me realize how hopeless I really feel.

Treading water on the hope that I can survive and actually breath,
That I won't drown in my own despair today.

Story's that I love and are so close to my very being,
Feel like poison, to any positivity that could possibly be in my body.

I hate myself for making you into...