Drifting Away On A River So Deep
Trapped in my mind
My sight is blind
Searching for something
Don't know what I'm trying to find
Everything from my past
I left behind
Emotion's are swinging from Angry to kind
There's no in between of the shit that I've been through
The things that I've seen
How could they do things so ungodly
And not see how it's mean?
And completely unfair
Said it would be better
When I got clean
But reality struck my spleen
Making me fall straight to my knees
Now my motivation is running away from me
Don't know where to go
Or who I want to be
If only I could replay the future I once seen
A vision from God
That no one believed
Life was completely content and comfortable
A never ending peace
Though the people I love are oblivious to how they treat
A girl who once dreamed for their love in return
Briefly noticed by the time I tried to leave
Sabotage my life with the control they seek
Taking my only purpose God blessed me with
Knowing my girls are exactly what I need
In this life to actually survive
Their control however resembles a shameful greed
As the riches from within my soul
Began to bleed
So I ran away to a place where
The river runs deep
My Life as a song that plays on repeat
Caught in the depths of it
Ma, it's exactly what you think
It's much worse though
Than you'd ever want to believe
The truth reveals itself
When I pull up my sleeve
What can I say though?
The river runs deep
Weeks pass by with minimal sleep
Fighting for your life
Cause every dope man is a creep
The lengths they go to will forever taunt your dreams
Wishing there was a middle point
Between being high and what's reality
Instead of feeling like I suffer from a split personality
And for me living this way is my horrific fatality
All of it started when you doubted my goals and denied what I could potentially be
Alone and afraid
Failure is all you were willing to see
At this point I don't think any of you deserve to know
What I could have freed
Upon your lives
I was given directions to our true destiny
The one where we fell back together
And reunited as a family
I wanted it so desperately
But no one found it possible
For once in a miracle
To just believe in me
@myrebeldiaries
© My Rebel Diaries
My sight is blind
Searching for something
Don't know what I'm trying to find
Everything from my past
I left behind
Emotion's are swinging from Angry to kind
There's no in between of the shit that I've been through
The things that I've seen
How could they do things so ungodly
And not see how it's mean?
And completely unfair
Said it would be better
When I got clean
But reality struck my spleen
Making me fall straight to my knees
Now my motivation is running away from me
Don't know where to go
Or who I want to be
If only I could replay the future I once seen
A vision from God
That no one believed
Life was completely content and comfortable
A never ending peace
Though the people I love are oblivious to how they treat
A girl who once dreamed for their love in return
Briefly noticed by the time I tried to leave
Sabotage my life with the control they seek
Taking my only purpose God blessed me with
Knowing my girls are exactly what I need
In this life to actually survive
Their control however resembles a shameful greed
As the riches from within my soul
Began to bleed
So I ran away to a place where
The river runs deep
My Life as a song that plays on repeat
Caught in the depths of it
Ma, it's exactly what you think
It's much worse though
Than you'd ever want to believe
The truth reveals itself
When I pull up my sleeve
What can I say though?
The river runs deep
Weeks pass by with minimal sleep
Fighting for your life
Cause every dope man is a creep
The lengths they go to will forever taunt your dreams
Wishing there was a middle point
Between being high and what's reality
Instead of feeling like I suffer from a split personality
And for me living this way is my horrific fatality
All of it started when you doubted my goals and denied what I could potentially be
Alone and afraid
Failure is all you were willing to see
At this point I don't think any of you deserve to know
What I could have freed
Upon your lives
I was given directions to our true destiny
The one where we fell back together
And reunited as a family
I wanted it so desperately
But no one found it possible
For once in a miracle
To just believe in me
@myrebeldiaries
© My Rebel Diaries